Broken

by Yolanda, a transracial adoptee (of Jamaican, black mixed with Chipawaue Indian origins) raised in the USA into a black American adoptive family.

Artwork by Yolanda

I was adopted at seven months old and my adoptee story isn’t a good one.

Basically I grew up in a religious family full of mental, physical, emotional and sexual abuse. Because of that, I was taken away from my adopted mom and placed in the foster care system, where the mental and physical abuse continued.

Growing up was hard, I was always the black sheep of the family. Now that I’m older, my adoptive family act like I did something to them. They don’t accept me or my children. At family functions they won’t even speak to me or my kids. So I stopped going and cut them completely off, but it still hurts.

All I ever wanted was to be close to my family. But I guess I’ll never know what that feels like. Life sure does suck sometimes. I get sick and tired of not being accepted. I can’t seem to make sense of my life anymore. Why am I even here on earth? They tell me my life has purpose but I don’t see it.

My artwork above reflects how I’ve been broken. My music also helps provide me an outlet to express my journey.

2 Replies to “Broken”

  1. Joy Smith – SW coast of Scotland – I am a nearly 60 something female, who has spent most of her career in the health profession. I have 20 years of Nursing as a General Nurse under my belt, before moving into the Complementary Health sector. First I gained a qualifications in Massage and Aromatherapy, before setting off on the McTimoney Chiropractic pathway. I qualified in 1998 and have since been working in my own clinic "Aligned with Joy" since qualifying. In this time I have come to realise that our physical health often reflects our emotional health, and have helped many people overcome hurdles that were an added bonus to dealing with their physical pain. I am currently undertaking more study, thsi time with the Upledger Institute to become a cranio-sacral therapist. I am also halfway through writing a book or two. The first one is a memoir of my life working as a McTimoney Chiropractor, the second is my life of coming to terms with being adopted. I am now dedicating my life to bringing more Joy into people's lives. You can join the Aligned with Joy Community on Facebook https://www.facebook.com/groups/alignedwithjoycommunity/
    Joy Smith says:

    Love your art and so sorry that your family treat you the way they do and make you feel the way you do. Blessings

    1. Thank you so much, I really appreciate it. I’m taking it step by step and day by day, to heal frim all the trauma. Thanks for reading my story.

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