Artwork by Jonas Haid, born in South Korea adopted to Germany
I can see clearly now the myth of my past behaviours and grievances I did to others.
Breaking through the surface I can see the truth by experiencing the pain and boundaries of my past.
I feel like I swam in secure darkness of the ocean and can now see the emotional landscape I couldn’t reached.
The rivers of tears are leading me to what I don’t know, avoiding the lump in the throat that can make me loose control. Control of what I thought I seemed to know, the person I used to be. It’s not what I thought it would be, but more than I deserved.
I feel the undisputed merging to what I don’t want to be. A fake of myself, running to the next fulfilment of other’s needs.
This picture shows the power of selfless confusions in a clear moment of understanding what is happening.
Resources
Mental Balance and Art by Jonas Haid
Jonas’s artwork “Genesis” was selected in 2021 by the Australian Government as part of 3 adoptee artworks sourced by ICAV and chosen to be featured in their Intercountry Adoption and Suicide in Australia: A Scoping Review