by Kamina Hall, a black, transracial, late discovery adoptee in the USA
It was never about you, my dear sweet child,
Your soul has always had a purpose, though you have feared it defiled.
She relinquished you, the grief is valid and oh-so-real,
But this is not forever, this isn’t your forever, feelings are there for us to feel.
Thus, grieve, dear soul, my sibling in love and light,
Let the sadness and pain wash over you, but don’t wallow too long in wrongs and rights.
Treat your emotions as visitors, welcome them with open arms and attend to them kindly,
Then, bid them farewell, thank them for coming, and never submit to them blindly.
Look at your pain, hurt, sorrow, rage, and fear,
Ask them what lessons they have for you, but refuse to allow them to interfere.
Your soul chose this path, this very journey, for a purpose,
So look to your feelings with curiosity, not identity, as they only exist to alert us.
Everything you are yearning for resides inside you at this very second,
You are not incomplete or faulty; so stand strong and refuse to feel threatened.
The family, the mother, the love unspoken,
Nothing and no one holds love for you like you becoming, with arms wide open.
So grieve beautiful soul; grieve what was lost,
Remember that you chose this path, though it comes with the most precious cost.
You chose this most difficult of paths to share your love, your light, and soul,
You are here to shine your light for the reckoning and to take part in making us whole.
You can follow Kamina at her Youtube channel – Kamina the Koach