förbi Oleg Lougheed, adopted from Russia to the USA. Founder of Overcoming Odds.
I missed my birth family.
I wanted to see them again.
But, it wasn’t possible anymore.
Instead, I had to settle for what was.
Me, hearing their voice as it traveled thousands of miles across the Atlantic Ocean.
A voice that was filled with elements of fear and love.
Them, hearing my voice.
Reassurance of me being alive and that things were going well.
The wait between the calls was tough to handle.
Each call brought up many emotions.
Emotions I wasn’t prepared to deal with.
I wasn’t taught how to be with my emotions while living in Russia.
Part of me wanted to try something new.
I turned to my adoptive parents.
Yet, every time I’d turn my shoulders and open my mouth, it would immediately close.
I felt that sharing those emotions with them would make them feel less than or as if they did something wrong.
So, I kept them to myself.
Hidden, depths below the surface.
It wasn’t until some time later, I was able to share what I was going through.
The narrative that I believed in, making my parents feel less than or as if they did something wrong, wasn’t serving me anymore.
I broke down while sitting in my bedroom with my adoptive mom by my side.
Looking back at it, she played a huge role in helping me understand how to feel and talk about what I felt.
Her choosing to listen to me made me feel safe.
Her words after I was done sharing provided the much needed comfort and reassurance that was okay to feel how I felt.
Her curiosity in me and about me became a stepping stone in helping me feel for years to come.
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